I can't, I can't, I JUST CAN'T!!!!

O i don't know where to begin. I know its been a week since I've blogged and I've needed to blog last week and every time I started to blog I had nothing to say!! ( I know a speechless woman?? I know and because its me who would have thought??) Anway

The last week or so feels like its been out of control!!! We were doing good on this road of TTWD (Or now I think its called Tweed in B'Mans words lol)..  We were just putting along. The spankings were coming the maintenance was coming ( I think this is what SugarAnne calls BS!!! lol) ( OK OK Yeah i read there blogs ALOT)))!!!! Anyway  things starting crashing when my mouth started running ( GASP you say a womans mouth runs??) Well apparently Tyler forgot that women have mouths that run freely at times.  Well He says I was spending to much time on the Internet blogging... OF course I have to argue the fact that i'm not blogging I'm reading. Blogging is when I write something and I hadn't been writing I been reading. Tyler seems to think that blogging is blogging and reading is blogging!!! OK OK Blind rod made its point. Blogging= reading and posting GOT IT

NOTE TO ALL WOMEN BLOGGING = READING AND POSTING!!! GOT IT?? OK I took one for the team..

So then were to this little thing called my freely running mouth again!!! So my oldest son that i like to call my trial and error (Which my trial and error is a pretty good kid) Ok trial and error has a free  running mouth too. I Have no idea where it came from hmmm?? Where o where ok.. Anyway back on track here. So  I butted in a few times and that really pissed Tyler off.. Ok in my defense I thought if I wasn't yelling it would be ok to but in if I said "Honey (In my sweet voice) thats not what he meant and no he doesnt." Well apparently it doesnt matter which way you butt in butting in is butting in. Well Tyler freely ran his mouth and said a few things that hurt not verbally abuse just swearing and yelling at me OUCH!!! Well i spent a week having poor me syndrome. Yes he let me know Poor me OUCH!!! again. Sooo it was really bad by Friday but my bro-in law (Sisters husband) had open heart surgery and I had all there grandkids here so the kids could be at the hospital. so no time for discipline or maintenance. 

The weekend got worse felt like my marriage was going back to the old NOOOOOOOOO!!! I felt so distant from him.. OOO its that darn poor me. Well Finally monday We settled down i got my maintenance and he made a VERYYYY Good point about EVERYTHING with the STICK!! and all seems to be floating a little better!! Over the last week I have learned.. Ok are you listening girls because this is good lessons and once again I'll take one for the Spanko Team!!! lol

Lessons learned:
1)Blogging is posting and reading
2) Butting in is NOT just yelling its talking nicely too
3)Interrupting your HOH when he is trying to talk especially when you got the look and the HUSH not such a good idea..

Now that's all fixed but now I have big anxiety..

I have to go back to work and I CAN"T I DON"T WANT TO I'm scared I haven't worked in over a year!!! I don't think i can be a submissive wife, Good mom, keep a clean house and work.

MY van is already a mess, I havent written anythng down and all i wanna do is crawl into bed I'm soo depressed.. Someone told me to ask for a distress spanking... Yup think I'll ask for something a little nicer :) maybe that will help...

So anyway theres my spill!!!

Please pray for me and the smoking thing SUCKING TOO!!! UGH I'm not doing well at it.