My Weekly Roller Coaster

I just wanted to pop in and say hi.  If i don't make myself post then I will go months without posting. I don't want to go months without posting. I just wanted to let you all know I love you and I'm still here. I read the blogs from my phone most of the time and sometimes my phone and blogger fight with each other and i cant reply. So if i don't reply I'm still reading.

Tyler and I had a rough week. last week. I was really hurt and it lingered a few days. I kind of gave him the cold shoulder but respectfully. He apologized and that's what I wanted. He rarely apologizes in situations like this and well this time i needed one.

We put the week behind us and Friday night we went out like a couple of teenagers. I bought a new outfit and new boots. It was a pink cute tank top, short jean shorts and brown boots. I looked pretty sexy so I've been told hehe. We went to Throttle Fest and we let our hair down, well I did Tyler is bald so I guess he let his goatee down haha.

Jesse James Dupree, Michael Ballard and Angie
FULL THROTTLE SALOON

 Lol we never drink and well I  didnt but Tyler got a shot from a girl on stilts and I got my pic taken with a little hotty girl!!.  We had a good time. We got home at 1am and I was soo tired man I'm old.

We really needed the time out though. We haven't been out together since my b-day 3 months ago. Lately my brain has been going 90 miles an hour. I have so many drafts started that I  cant put words around. I also want to write stories that I can't put my head around.

Things are looking up and we will be ok. Schools back in. Kids are doing good, Tyler is back to work hopefully permanently or  at least for a while. It will all work out it always does.

Hope everyone has a great week!!!              
                                                             

Thought I'd give us a little something to help us out!!

                                                         
                       

TGIF and Dropping in

I don't know about you guys but I'm going there!!!




 

This week truly has been busy. I have so many drafts I want to post. So much crap going through my head and No where to go with it!!  I'm like "O I want to write this and that." All it does is stay in my cluttered mind!!! This summer has seemed to just been a rough one. With work and kids and everything I'm just ready to SCREAM!!

Yup that's me!!!

                                                


Anyway I just wanted to let everyone know I was doing ok.  Blogger is being weird and some post were coming up on my blog roll and some weren't. Yesterday I spent some time trying to go through and reply to post. If I missed you I'm sorry I will do more catching up this weekend. If you need me e-mail me.

I do care about each and every one of you. We all must be such a close community because it seems this summer has really been a rough one for us all but hang in there.



Thought this was perfect!!!

                                                    
This weekend is full of fun and excitement for us woohoo!!! lol. A birthday part Saturday and Sunday. O well I love my nieces and nephews and so fun to see them!!

Hope today is a great day for everyone and
                                                     
                                                       
          
                                                   

Woe is me

I thought I would just check in. There really hasn't been any thing big going on. I have a couple post I want to post but cant seem to get them to come out right. Tyler has been leaving the tv off so I can go to sleep. I've been going to bed by 9:30 only to be woken up 3x before 11 by kids, dogs and Tyler. 

The other night when I got woken up I was beside myself irritated and I did get a spanking but nothing major just enough to annoy me. I was waiting for Tyler to turn the tv off and I was going to get up and stomp out of the room into my daughters bed who was staying at my moms.

Tomorrow school starts so hopefully I can get the kids into bed early tonight and all will be well in our household. Hopefully Tyler will get back to work soon so he will go to sleep as well but I doubt before midnight.

I'm sorry I need to be asleep before 10pm to function throughout the day. It has felt better even though I keep waking up. I don't know why every little thing is waking me up. I am normally a sound sleeper. Tyler tells me the world doesn't stop because I go to sleep!!! Cripe its 11pm it most normal houses the world does stop then!!

Whatever I have resided that If I want to sleep I will have to get a hotel room. That's just that!!!

I also later informed Lee that I really shouldn't be held responsible for whatever I do when woken up like that!! I also asked if I could plead insanity OO never mind lol!!

Anyway I just wanted to say I'm here just snazzy as ever.

Its so annoying I have 5 drafts in my blog that I been writing on. I have so much in my head I want to say.

But in my brain it seems clear or maybe more like shouting I don't know but then when I try and put it down on paper it doesn't come out of my finger tips because my brain cant process it to go to my finger tips.

I been on blogger since 2011.. I didn't post or reply much till the last couple months. I did become friends with some that used to blog. I was cleaning up my blog roll the other day. I found that some did say goodbyes, same just left with no warning and some got divorced.

The saying goodbye doesn't bother me or the leaving with no warning doesn't bother me because hey life gets busy and I'm just going to assume they are fine. What bothers me the most is the ones that got divorced. Its soo sad. I think part of the sad part is for say a year they posted and everything seemed peachy and then 3 months later they posted and said were divorced!!

"HUH?  WHAT?  BUT I THOUGHT?"

It leaves me there with my mouth wide open and stunned.. Its like hearing about that couple that seemed soo happy and tried for years to have kids then they finally did then they got divorced 2yrs later. Its a kick in the stomach.  Then there are the ones that your like "O they just got divorced? I figured they would have divorced like 5yrs ago." Lol

There has been a lot of talk around blog land about being real and I think more of us have come out in our blogs and have been more real.

I think its important for us to be real especially for the newbies in TTWD because If all we ever post about is the good stuff and they are struggling well then it can be discouraging.

Now of course if you and your S/O never struggle and your so madly in love that he or she never drives you insane or things are always peachy then I could see why you wouldn't post anything but good stuff.  If this is you well then you should let us all know your secret.

Real is real. I don't know very many couples that have been married for especially 10yrs or so and haven't argued. Good grief we have had some doozies. They are better now since we started TTWD. I still have to tell you Tyler has a temper and just last night a box of checks were knocked off the banister on the top of the stairs and landed at the bottom of them. Noone was down there and he wasn't throwing them at anyone he just was annoyed and mad and I think maybe his arm accidently knocked them off.. Ok yeah we will go with that. lol

A Meme

I stole this from Lil and its funny because she said she has a post that is refusing to come together and I have the same issue so I thought I'd join her!!

1: What are you wearing?

• Jean Capris and My Hard Rock Café Georgia shirt

2: Ever been in love?

• Twice

3: Ever had a terrible breakup?

• Yes

4: How tall are you?

• 5'2 3/4 but Tyler says it's ok to say 5'3 lol

5: How much do you weigh?

• ummm 150 ugh

6: Any tattoos do you want?

• I have one on my foot. Been thinking of taking a pic someday

7: Any piercings that you want?

• Probably not I have my belly pierced and my ears

8: OTP?

• I have no idea what that is. the meaning brought up lots of things

9: Favorite Show?

• Criminal Minds

10: Favorite bands?

• not really a music person

11: Something you miss?

• the closeness my siblings and I had especially my sis n law

12: Favorite song?

13: How old are you?

• 30 + 5 lol I just left Lil's answer and rolled with it lol

14: Zodiac sign?

• Gemini  (I am all GEMINI!!)

15: Hair Color?

• Brown today who knows tomorrow or next week lol

16: Favorite Quote?

• Do Unto others as you would have them do unto you

17: Favorite singer?

• Plum

18: Favorite color?

• Depends on what the color is for

19: Loud music or soft?

• soft or none

20: Where do you go when you're sad?

• I hug my husband

21: How long does it take you to shower?

• 10-20 minutes.

22: How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?

• It depends I can be ready in 5 min if I have to lol

23: Ever been in a physical fight?

• years ago.

24: Turn ons?

• I have to say dominance for sure

25: Turn offs?

• Lying and not being true to me

26: The reason I joined Tumblr?

• I should join I just learned it existed

27: Fears?

• Outliving hubs or my kids

28: Last thing that made you cry?

• A Spanking

29: Last time you cried?

• Last week

30: Meaning behind your url

• I want my hubs to guide me but gently guide me

31: Last book you read?

• I think one of my fiction stories

32: Last song you listened to?

• I don't know

33: Last show you watched?

• Don't remember

34: Last person you talked to?

• a co-worker

35: The relationship between you and the person you last texted?

• Friend

36: Favorite food?

• I have a serious weakness for good chocolate. ditto

37: Place you want to visit?

• Germany

38: Last place you were?

• outside

39: Do you have a crush?

• only on Tyler.

40: Last time you kissed someone?

• This morning before I left for work

41: Last time you were insulted and what was it?

• I Suppose when A Neighbor that I don't know said something about my kid that she doesn't know. I was Appauled

42: What color underwear are you wearing?

• cute pink and blue plaid. Lol had to look

43: What color shirt are you wearing?

• White with piece signs and splash of different color

44: What color bottoms are you wearing?

• Jean (Wasn't this asked at the top?)

45: Wearing any bracelets?

• 2 a butterfly clasp one with different accent colors in it and 2 blue and pink ones

46: Last sport you played?

• basketball

47: Last song you sang?

• Don't know

48: Last prank call you remember doing?

• Lol years ago we called a guy in our town and said something but he ended up being our age and we became good friends lol

49: Last time you hung out with anyone?

• Last Night

50: Favorite movie?

• Fried Green Tomatoes Always and forever LOL

I just want to say

                                                                  






 






That's all I had to say. Its my blog and I just had to say it out loud. Because If I put it on Face Book or something then I would get 100 text or messages  asking
        





Then I would have to say







                                          





No I wouldn't really but  if you did

                                           

                                    
                                           


I would love you forever and give


                                            




Love the Care Bears and I kept finding cute pics so of course I had to keep going!!!

Spanking Good Weekend

             

On my way home Friday I text Tyler

" If we get alone time this weekend I could use some attention on my back side. I feel my attitude veering off."

His reply "I'm pretty sure we can arrange that."

"Thank you Sir"

I smiled and went on about my evening.

Well I wasn't sure if he would follow through with it. I thought he might. It seems when I'm doing my best things fall in order.

Friday night we hung out with neighbors. I know he did that just for me because well we are both home bodies and him especially.

when we went inside I was up getting ready for bed. The boys were at friends and our daughter was out playing. I had just realized we were alone and I started rethinking.

 "Asking him for a spanking wasn't such a bright idea" lol!!  I know we want one thing and when it comes down to it really we don't lol.

                                                  


Tyler didn't give me much time to think. He walked in the room grabbed me and bent me over the bed.. Our daughter had the back scratcher out earlier that day so he grabbed it and went to town. (Thanks daughter).

He always lectures during a spanking. He brought things up that I didn't think about.  It was exactly what I needed

All weekend he threatened to spank me.  One time I couldn't keep from laughing, It was late Tyler was laying in bed and I was helping our son look for something. (Ok Tyler is the finder in our house not me. I know I'm a woman and should be but I truly suck at it.)  Anyway Tyler told me where it was because he just used it. I couldn't see it.  In my defense it was hiding.

I asked Tyler to go get it. he said "If I go down and find it where I told you it  was I'm beating your ass with the paddle."

I was trying not to laugh because that's silly to spank me cus I cant find something. lol of course I didn't tell him that. I did love the dominance of the whole situation..

Yes he found it where he said it was but me being short it was hidden and I couldn't see it honestly.  he did come up and gave me a couple swats with the backscratcher when he got back in bed.

Not exactly Rated R maybe more like PG 18 lol

 Tyler has told me several times it would be nice if I just came up and gave him a BJ and took care of him no sex. On Saturday the kids were at my parents.  Well I was cleaning and I wanted to go in there and give him a BJ  but for some reason I felt shy . I'm really not a BJ fan and he gets one every time we have sex. Anyway I finally went over and knelt down to him and asked him if he wanted one.

"Not now the kids will be home soon." He was chuckling (I know he knows its hard for me.)

"I called my mom the kids haven't left yet" I smiled  "Don't I always cross my T's and Dot my I's" I smiled at him

He chuckled "Yes you do, and since you did so much preparing go for it."

We ended up having sex but I had no intentions of it. Just so were all clear I didn't start sex. He's the one who picked me up and threw me on the chair!! lol. (It seems so unnatural and exciting to have sex anywhere in the house)

I was proud of myself for doing that for him because I know he was happy. All in all we had the best weekend we have had for a while!!


                        

Drop Kick the TV

This isn't about spanking just my every day life

4yrs ago when Tyler and I moved into the place were in now he agreed with me no tv in our room.  Well as time went on some how a tv got placed in our room and he started watching movies in there. We had no cable just a dvd player and movies.  Well he likes scarey movies and I do not. I would be trying to sleep and hear girls screaming and saws going etc ugh!! Well I decided that if I got cable put in our room maybe I wouldn't have to hear the screaming and he would spank more because of the noise we could turn it up.

Well the horror movies stopped but it didn't help the spanking lol..  Then he is a night owl and so am I but I need sleep. He can go to bed at 2am and get up at 5 am but I can NOT. You want to know why he can do that because if the kids don't have sports going on he comes home and sleeps till 8 or 9 pm guess what I CAN NOT!!! lol

So anyway we have talked and talked about turning the tv off so I can sleep. I don't think that asking him to turn the tv off at midnight is a big deal. I mean it is midnight and we are not teenagers anymore. Cripe I'm not in my 20's anymore and he's not even in his 30's anymore!!! We need sleep. Well at times he will turn the tv off  and sometimes he wont. Its just till I go to sleep then once i'm asleep he can turn it back on.

Well lastnight I was laying down to go to sleep and he came in.

I said "Your turning the tv on aren't your?"

"Yes I had it off lastnight. I need the tv to sleep we need to compromise."

"Well I don't feel its really a compromise area because its for my health I need sleep. I already fight energy issues as it is."

" I know you do I guess I'm an ass"

Ok so I just have to laugh because when he says I make him feel like crap and he feels like an ass when he does bla bla then OK stop doing that!!!  I mean I'm just saying. Of course I don't just say it out loud to him.


 I run an office and I work by myself most of the day. Its hard sitting at the computer and keeping energy. Plus I fight insomnia and when I reach a certain point like 2am I cant sleep. 

I started sighing and heeving and whatever noises I could make and flopping around the bed because I was annoyed and couldn't sleep.Finally at 2 am he turns the TV off!!! Well guess what people??  Its tooo late. I hit the point of no return. It is now 2 am and my body has given up on sleep. Sooo 4 am rolls around and that's the last I saw the time.

Guess who was laying next to me snoring!! Yup Tyler GAH!!!

I'm sooo tempted at times to take the tv out of our room while hes gone and see what he says.  I just don't think hes being fair. Like I told him if he needed to sleep and couldn't with the tv on I wouldn't  be in there with the tv because he's rude. When he allow it anyway?? Umm yeah probably not..

I really don't know what this post was about. I guess just to throw it out there and be real.

Be really annoyed at my husband and be ready to drop kick the TV!!!!