Hey guys its been a bit since I posted... Yes theres been spankings to post about. but a couple of my friends and I are starting an online paid fictional story website. The free time i get on the computer I use it writing my stories. Look for a blog on the website soon..
Anyway this ttwd has done alot of good for our lives. I used to hate cooking and it never was time consuming. It was hamburger helper, Frozen Lasagna etc. Now I have been making recipes and coming up with yummy things. I think its because I realize Tyler and my kids deserve more of my effort than making the same thing all the time. Its funny because my kids like the stuff that takes longer to make and not so kid friendly food better than they like the kid friendly stuff. Spaghetti, Pizza etc probably cus they have eaten more than there share of it..
I dont know if you remember my post where I wanted Tyler to hold me accountable for things that he needs to work on to. Well i presented it to him and he didnt really like the idea. Well apparently he got tired of the kids being late to school. When i woke up late thursday morning VERY late he informed me we would be dealing with it later.. During the spanking he told me that We are NO LONGER going to be late!! I needed to get the kids to school on time and everytime I'm late to something I WILL be spanked well its been 2days lol but I havent been late.
I think I'm taking more pride in myself as well. I never really wore makeup or dressed nice just sweats and stuff. Well i been putting on makeup more. I want to start wearing skirts more. I want Tyler to be proud of being with me. The thing I love to is the honesty that comes out of his mouth. When i ask the questions Am I putting on weight? I get the TRUTH lol!!! Before it was always "thats a trick question." When I ask him about my hair and if it bothers him that I just brush and go. I again get the truth!!!.. so here we are I been fixing my hair, putting on makeup, cooking dinner and working on not being late.
Tyler and I also had a conversation the other night. You see I have been on all kinds of boards since starting cdd I wanna learn about this lifestyle ya know!!! and well i'm a woman I gotta have someone to talk to.. Anyway I finally got Tyler on a board. Well I have shared with him a few times about the amount of spankings some woman get. The number of swats and how long they get spanked for. Warm ups etc. Well I really wanted him on groups to figure things out. Well he says to me the other night " I wonder if I spank you long enough. These other men spank their wives to tears etc. What do you think?" I said "Well I think that some woman are mad and angry so they have to spank the anger out of them and get them back into submissive mode. I've yet to be mad and angry and I"m always submissive when it comes to getting a spanking. Also the one time that i was very stress and unsubmissive you did get me to that release even if i didnt cry." I continued by telling him that I'm sure there will be a day that I'm not as submissive and dont deserve that i need a spanking and maybe he will have to get me to that point. I ended it with praying about it and talking to other men. Really Its hard to tell your spanker that you need more spankings lol
I told him he got me to a crying point the other day and it wasnt the amount of spankings it was the lecture. "I"m very dissapointed that you were texting and driving. I have made sure I stopped texting and driving so that I can hold you accountable." he says to me as he's laying swats of that blind rod on my bottom. You see I think this is the first time I've disapointed him. The other things I've gotten spanked for is mostly forgetting to do things or some pet peeve of his. So the tears were of remorse about the texting. Should i be remorseful that I didnt make that phone call he probably could've made but hates the phone. Or should I be remorseful because I left a cabinet drawer open?? I'm truly asking I dont know..
Well Anyway It seems I maybe in for alot longer harder spankings grrr lol no really i'm ok with it. If were gonna do it I want it to be right. I also know that I trust Tyler and he will do for us what is right..I know that he just wants us to grow together in God and with eachother so whatever he decides I know its for the best.
Hes so great because he comes up with things on his own and they are so cute.. The other day was maintenance. The kids werent home so he could use his hand instead of the quieter implements like the LJ and Blind ROD!!! . Well maintenance is pretty relaxed if I have been a good girl :) Well on friday I'm stepping into the shower and he's stepping out. He starts swatting my bottom on the left side. I get 10 swats for maintenance when I've been good. He's laying down the swats and they are getting harder and well my right side is getting lonely. I normally dont count the swats well I was today.. IN the middle of it I said "Hey my right side is getting lonely." He just keeps smacking away on the left side UGH!!! Well we get to 10 he continues I say "Hey thats 10" Lol He stops at 15. He said "Thats for saying the right side was lonely!!!" and laughs. I so wanted to say "Yes and it still is." But i figured I would end up with 15 more on the left side so it would be pretty pointless. He always wants to leave it that I KNOW he's in control.
So mostly that sums it up. I'm still here. I'm still reading and I'm very actively doing ttwd and Loving it or well loving Tyler anyway lol!!! If i could post from my phone I would post more but for some reason it wont let me grrr!!! so for now i will post when I can and I will let everyone know when the site is up and running.
Hope All my spanko guys and gals are doing well!!!